thursday

just in time for my ME drawing quiz. seriously — first drawing quiz ever. my artist skills didn’t help much. i guess i’m more of a painter than a drawer.

had “i never knew you” by cage — “the sky opened up, god handed you directly to me” — in my head when i woke up and while i was taking the quiz.

took a nap on the quad in the afternoon. earlier, as i was going to econ, i saw a guy sleeping on the grass in front of the fountain, knee up against the wall, hood over his face. when i came back, he was still there.

sleeping in public feels very vulnerable. but it’s kind of nice to curl up on the grass, put your head on your backpack, and cover your eyes with your jacket. until the sun gets too hot and then you have to find new shade. i may have succeeded in slightly tanning my lower legs today.

went to a symphony concert of final fantasy. had to get away from school/home routine for a while. skipped out on the gym again. not sure if i’m physically improving, though. i’m still five pounds heavier than i normally am, but my love handles seem to have diminished and my legs are better? not sure.

imaginary “if i were witty and bold”, this is what my reaction should have been

i put the car into park and step out of the car.

“sir!”

hopefully, he realizes that i’m talking to him.

“i’m sorry. it seems that i didn’t see you. and for that, i apologize.”

hopefully, he accepts my apology with a nod or something.

“however, i don’t appreciate you knocking on the back of my car in retaliation, because it scared the shit out of me. so, i’m going to go home and cry now.”

which is kind of what happened.

“unless you would like to acknowledge or apologize or some-other-word-that-starts-with-an-A for making me really uncomfortable…”

open to response…

“… i’m going to go home and cry now. have a nice day.” (avec sarcasm de jon stewart.)

go mass!

Mass. is 1st state to sue feds over marriage law.

wow!!! so awesome! a tiny little state taking on the federal govt!

summer quarter ain’t that easy

too tired to paint or dye my hair or musick, even though that’s what i want to do. not in the mood to start a new project. i want to make this t-skirt by threadbanger projects.

rock/hip-hop

who said linkin park was the first to merge rock with hip-hop? i have “follow the bleeder” by cage on loop. the end and beginning are indistinguishable that way.

do i want to go to his concert all the way in fremont?…

i missed the rise against concert, though…

have i mentioned cage? he had a childhood right out of a horror story (wikipedia entry on cage). i only came across his purevolume page yesterday, and i was hooked. i think it would be a good idea to listen to rap while running jogging, since i can actually distract my brain by focusing on the lyrics, and the beats would help, too.

sidenote: $10 wedding dress made out of 6 XL t-shirts by threadbanger. i think it’s way awesomer than conventional $800 wedding dresses.

the pretty reckless

the pretty reckless was one of the reasons why i decided to go to the veronicas show. i have to say, i like them quite a lot. i love the singer’s voice. low, raw, and with attitude. she’s 16!

here are some of my fav songs (some are from the seattle performance!):

- zombie
- heart
- sleeze sister

ahhhh! first concert evah!!

just came back from my first concert experience ever!! i had to learn that the trick to finding the ticket window is that it’s a hole in the wall, you hand a silly little triple-dollar sign to a person who then stamps one of your wrists.

carney, the pretty reckless, and the veronicas were all amazing, so the whole experience was quite satisfactory. and to think — i was considering not going. got home at 12:00 am exactly.

the girls were as impeccable and charming as always. lisa was describing how one of the upcoming songs was very personal, and threw in the word ‘douchebag’ (”i’m down with you americans”) to describe her ex. lisa: “is anybody in love with jess??” many responses. jess: “is anybody hoping to find love on the street tonight?” jess leaned all over george the guitarist for a bit, so that was funny. the equipment guy was cute; he was like, “we’re from australia” in what i think was a faked australian accent.

carney was also really funny. leader singer apologized for having starbucks today. the drummer bounced away two of his drumsticks, then jumped offstage (it was a really small stage) to bang on some crates and went back up again. and they sprayed silly putty on the pretty reckless after their last song.

also marched in the gay pride parade today, handing out beads on behalf of the methodist congregational church. i know, i felt like a hypocrite. but as long as it’s a benevolent organization, i’m cool with that.

tired. school tomorrow! yagh!

“don’t ask, don’t tell”

Lt. Dan Choi may be fired from the military for refusing to lie about who he loves. Sign a personal letter of support for Dan before Tuesday’s trial and help him fight “Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell”

goo!!!

(if you’ve ever wanted to let the army know how you feel about their discrimination tendencies… now is the time…)

pix

woman blocks ahmadinejad. what’s the bet they threw her in jail? reminiscent of the tiananmen square photo.

fox news likes to pretend that unfaithful republicans are actually democrats.

everyone is RIPping about how michael jackson died. what about the kid who was beaten to death by his father???

went through the first disk of the audiobook of ‘doppelganger’ by michael parker. yay. what a pleasant surprise to hear it narrated in an australian accent.

hey, i’m watching my fingers type on the mirrored reflection in the window!

i like my ME CAD class. computer-aided design is so cool.

blah

the more i write my personal statement, the worse it gets. i swear. it feels self-defeating.

exercising is depressing. it just is. my fucking right foot/leg. it’s a good thing my left leg knows what it’s doing.